this Mess...

At long last, the exams are over. spanning 13days, it's the longest ever during my years in NUS. o well, it may be my last exams in a long while.

the acceptance letter has been signed. let's hope all the admin stuff clears before may28 - deadline for change of filing status. at least it'll give me a peace of mind that all is going to proceed as planned. 1 1/2 years in the UK is a good thing. i'll update the details another time.

God has been so gracious to me, showering me with countless blessings despite the troubles - troubles that i so totally didn't cause and have nothing to do with. i just hope that all this clears up soon. it has caused me much disappointment, distress, anguish, stress, tension and to lose focus/concentration on my studies the past year. i've asked many questions and i've long forgiven. however, trust and respect have greatly diminished and they have to be earned back, bit by bit. i'm still asking God to heal my heart protect the people i love from the attacks of the evil one - i believe all this is spiritual warfare.

there is more to this whole episode than meets the eye but i do not wish to feel any resentment towards anything or anyone. trying to do this is really a struggle and chore. God help me.

on the brighter side of things, as mentioned earlier, the exams are over and there'll be at least 2 months of holiday - for me - so yea, i'll just enjoy it as much as i can. and Yes! dear's coming back in 16 days!